This week I had the incredible experience of being interviewed one on one by Elder Carlson of the seventy. He came to our mission for our conference and i was able to talk to him! We had a great conversation about forgiving ourselves. Something that we all know that I am TERRIBLE at, but getting better :) He pointed out something on his thumb and asked me what it was...me being a bit confused answered "your knuckle?" He responded with a laugh that is was actually a scar. He related this to the Atonement and my favorite topic...forgiving yourself :). He pointed out that I had no idea that it was actually a scar on this thumb....I admitted that i didn't. He shared that a lot of times we worry so much that everyone is just staring at our scars and our flaws when in reality you are the only one that sees them. I could relate. He then repeated over and over that the scar is not the wound! The wound had been all healed up, just like most of spiritual wounds. And the thumb still worked even with the scar!! the scar that HE only knew was there! We sometimes are left with spiritual scars to remind us to stay away from danger, and to remind us what we have learned and how far we have come. This may sound harsh but remember the SCAR IS NOT THE WOUND.
The thumb still works just fine. We all deserve to be a little more patient with ourselves. " we can all learn from that voice from heaven. it is not loud, scolding, or demeaning; it was a still small voice of perfect mildness, giving firm direction wile giving hope" We should all learn to talk to ourselves in this way.